I'm Doing Good

I've had a lot of people concerned with our family so I just wanted to update everyone on how we are doing. First, 3 weeks ago was one of the hardest experiences our family has gone through. If I had any pull in this world it would be that no one would have to go through that. But, it's all part of life. Coming out of that weekend I know that Ryan and I have a better appreciation for each other. I didn't think we could get closer but we have. As for me, I have to be honest it was hard. The first 2 weeks were the hardest. The first week there were lots of tears and I didn't want to go anywhere or do anything. That's how I deal with things. The best thing Ryan and I did was go to the temple the next Friday. I had a very special experience there and it was filled with lots of emotions but it really helped to be there. It took me just over 2 weeks and then the Sat of conference I put all my make up on and actually got dressed for a change and that was a new start for me. One thing many people have asked me is about my emotions and hormones being all out of whack. I'm really lucky it wasn't bad. I feel I am pretty in check with that and Ryan has to agree. I was never one of those pregnant women that Ryan thought would come out- you know what I mean. It still has it's hard moments but I have such an amazing, awesome, wonderful husband that just holds me and tells me that he loves me. Overall, we are all doing good. We love each other and love being a family. We know our little one just needed a body and we helped them on their way in this crazy journey of life. Thanks for all of those people that sent their love and hugs to our family. They really helped. These beautiful flowers are what my family sent to me. I loved them!!