Saturday, December 26, 2009

Deep Thoughts by Kimberly

Deep Thoughts......
I just got back from a fun time at a hat and scarf party for my amazing friend Christa. Christa has stage 3A breast cancer and is going through chemo and then onto radiation for her. All I could think about is how strong she is. I found myself thinking about how I would handle the situation if I were in her shoes. She has such a positive attitude with an awesome family. Her 2 boys shaved their heads and her 2 daughters donated their hair to locks of love. Christa is my inspiration and my hero. How can I complain that my 6 month old has a cold and isn't sleeping well?? How can I complain that my almost 3 year old just pulled his diaper off during nap time and won't sleep?? How can I complain that I have to do 4 nights alone while Ryan has to go to work?? How can I complain that my boobs don't work and I'm not able to breast feed our children?? I sat there watching my friend's attitude and was in awe at how strong she is. My little trials and struggles I am going through doesn't even compare to the things she is going through!! Christa- you are my HERO!!! I want to be you when I grow up!
Then, as I drove home I was listening to Rascal Flats song Broken Road. It made me think about Ryan and how blessed and lucky I am to have him in my life. I had a long 27 year wait to find Ryan. I had to go through things in my life to truly appreciate all that he does for me. When we moved to St. Johns I was a little worried. We were moving farther away from family. But, in the end, Ryan and I have grown even closer and our family is even stronger. Ryan does those little things that I truly treasure. He still opens my door. He takes my hand when we are walking. He loves to plant flowers with me every spring. He loves to rub, well likes, to rub my feet when I ask him to. He looks me in the eye and makes me feel important. He snuggles right next to me and holds me in the middle of the night when I tell him I'm cold. It took a lot to find Ryan and many broken roads but now that I have him for eternity I am so Blessed!! I love you honey always and forever!!
Then I started thinking about our family and how much I love our boys. Dallin has had a few struggles in life and I have had many worries about him. He is Dallin and we wouldn't trade him. Life isn't fun without him. And my sweet Jacob!! I love how his face lights up everytime he smiles. My life is truly blessed. We all have our own trials and struggles but in the end if we keep plugging along and keep our head up, we will be blessed!! I had many more thoughts but just a few I wanted to make sure I got down.

4 comments:

Judy (mom) said...

What sweet thoughts you have shared. We are glad you found Ryan too because that makes you part of our family. It was fun to see you last night. Love you and your sweet family!

Lulu said...

She would be my Hero too. My Grandma just recently died from Breast cancer. It was very hard for my mother. Her mom and dad are both gone. My grandma went through very hard times also. She is always going to be my hero.

Wendi and Matt said...

Love you lots, You are amazing Kimmie, I am serious!

Christa Johnson said...

Kim, you are soooo amazing with sharing your feelings! You always amaze me with your honesty and guniune love for everyone in your life. I hope you realize how much you shine. I am sooooooooo honored to make your blog and I couldn't believe the entry and how much I have meant to you, that means soooooo much to me. It is people like you that help me get through this whole thing with a smile on my face. I was soooo excited to meet with my long time friends again on Saturday. I love that we are all mom's now and we have that in common now too, along with our friendship! I really love you and your family and have been sooo honored to be your friend for all these years!
Love,
Christa